Wednesday, 4 November 2015

I can't believe it's November,

So much has happened over the past few months, and I feel like my head is still spinning. What with my job ending with the closure of the hotel I worked in, and then being offered another job in another hotel and then after about 6 weeks, quitting that job to stay home and take care of my best friend it's no wonder some days I don't know if I'm Arthur or Martha. But in actual fact I don't regret any of it it's just hard getting my head around a new way of life. The hardest part of course is dealing with the fact that my best friend whom I have been friends with for around 47 yrs has cancer and there is no magic cure, nothing they can do to stop the pain, not with this version of this dreadful disease.
I have tried to throw myself into my crafts but even that I find difficult to focus on, I keep thinking if I could just lose myself in chaos of paper, stamps, photos and flowers I'd feel rejuvenated and ready to be strong again, which I really want to be for her but some times it's just so hard! Ok! enough self pity, thank you for letting me whinge and now I can get on with this post. 
So who has started their Christmas cards? I have been resisting the temptation because I have been trying to finish the album that I started, (what seems like months ago). It's just gorgeous, it's one of the versions on the internet by Kathy Orta. I am doing mine without too much embellishment because I want to focus on the photos. But it has lots of flips, envelopes and secret compartments, in which to tuck heaps of photos. I put it away because I was feeling guilty about the mess on the dining room table when we have been having so many visitors, I don't want Faye's bosses and work mates going away thinking she shares a house with a very messy crazy lady. :) 
One of the saving graces over the past few weeks has been being able to get up through the night and watch the All Blacks playing in and WINNING the Rugby world cup, that has been a great distraction.
The other positive has been  that Molly has had 24/7 company, no more being left here in the house for around 8hrs. a day on her own. She's loving the fact that the house is open on a warm day she can go and play on the deck, she has cuddles available 24/7 and of course she never has to worry about an empty food dish. Anyway thank you for letting me ramble out there in blog-land, I'm going to leave you with a few photos and go and try and finish this album.

Sunday, 16 August 2015

Nothing like a miserable wet and foggy Sunday.....

to make you feel a bit blah but today this one's done the opposite for me, I've got stuck into the housework, lit the fire and got some washing on, I know it doesn't sound exciting but it's kept me going, stopped me sitting in a chair feeling sorry for myself so I'll take the win.

Speaking of wins, what a fabulous game of rugby last night between the All Blacks and the Australians, it was so exciting to watch and of course getting a win was the icing on the cake, here's hoping the Silver Ferns do as well this afternoon against Australia. What is it between our two countries that we can't stand to see them win? I have no idea but that rivalry is certainly strong.
It's hard to believe we are half way through August and nearly into spring, can't wait it's going to be exciting to not have to worry about ice at 6am when I go to work. I'm amazed at how I've adapted from working afternoon/night to starting at the crack of dawn! I actually enjoy being home afternoon and evenings, I love that I can go to bed once I'm tired and not have to fight through till 11pm, when I'd go home and suddenly be wide awake until around 2am, this definitely seems more natural.
When I decided to create this post I definitely had something on my mind to say but now that I've waited for the laptop to start up, chased Molly off the keyboard and gotten organised, the thought has gone. I hate this short term memory thingy that's going on at the moment it's horrible. I've been told it's a side effect of the Leukemia meds, it could also be side effects of the Heart Bypass, but whatever it is it's messing with my head. Starting a new job has been hard enough but adding this problem to the mix has been stressful to say the least. I've always considered myself to be a very organised "ahead of the game" kind of person, but lately I spend a lot of time second guessing myself, feeling embarrassed because I've forgotten something I've been told/shown etc or just not feeling my usual organised self, I really hope it's going to pass.
Anyway enough self pity, must go and organise the last load of washing.
Ltrs :)

Sunday, 9 August 2015

A Snowy Sunday....

.........and it's freezing. I'm glad I've got the weekend off and don't need to drive anywhere. I was going to go buy some black card to start a very special album for a special person in my life but I don't fancy driving. Plus my best friend is having a bad day and really needs taking care of. It makes me realise how precious life is and how we should not waste any opportunity to appreciate our family and friends because life can be turned upside down in a flash.
So the snow that started falling last night, is still falling although now it's mixed with rain but it still looks treacherous out there.....ah forget that the rain has stopped and now it's big flakes of snow and it's settling. So pleased I'm not starting work at 6am in the morning it could be nasty.
On the subject of work I'm loving my new job and I'm enjoying the fact that it's part-time. Okay I've had to reasses my lifestyle but not being so tired and feeling like work was my only thing has been good.

On the cute front, I sat down in my chair and picked up my laptop and my darling Molly climbed up onto the chair beside me and went to sleep. Cats really do give you so much love and company and this one makes a career of it.
So I think this afternoon is going to spent finishing the little baby jacket I started last night, this pile of baby knitting is getting bigger and that's awesome.
Oh and of course I'll have to watch the netball, go New Zealand.

Tuesday, 21 July 2015

The things you see....

that inspire the hell out of you! This morning I was coming away from a friends place when I spied this amazing lady out walking. It's been cold here this morning and the wind is biting, but there she was, at a guess I'd say definitely in her 70's, very frail  and tiny and looking like she just stepped out of Vogue magazine. Had I not been driving I would have whipped out my cell phone and begged her for a photo that I could look at on the days when I need inspiration to get myself out of bed and pulled together. She was dressed in a long, black coat, cinched at the waist with a wide belt, her grey hair pulled elegantly into a bun with a gorgeous little black hat perched on her head. She walked with a stick and was clearly having trouble fighting the wind, but there she was totally beautiful and out braving the cold enjoying her walk!
A message to us all : Use it or lose it!

Monday, 20 July 2015

Week Three....

of being unemployed! But that doesn't mean I haven't been busy, right now I don't know how I fitted work in. Of course a lot of the time has been filled with going to doctors appointments etc with my best friend who has just been diagnosed with  cancer. Yes it's been a biggy, and although I don't go to church every week I do believe in God and I think he decided I needed to be unemployed so that I could be her support, go to her appointments, treatments etc with her.  It's ironic but when I was diagnosed with Leukemia in 2002 she was working part-time so she could take care of me so I think there's a  bit of "higher planning @ going on here. And as of next week I will be working part-time so hopefully that will all work out fine.
   It's been incredibly cold here the last few days so I say it's been "knitting weather", I have accumulated quite a pile of baby clothes which I'm going to drop of at the maternity ward at the hospital one day this week. I love knitting little clothes and I enjoy the thought that in some way I'm giving back for the help and care I've had at the hospital, both with the Leukemia and last year having the Heart Bypass. Once again I urge anyone who loves to knit little things to do this because sadly there are a lot of people in our country who through no fault of their own are struggling to make ends meet and a little help along the way never hurt anyone.
Miss Molly is loving the fact that she has all this company at home at the moment, hot and cold running cuddles, food and attention are her idea of a good life lol! She is such a gorgeous wee girl but man is she stroppy if she doesn't get her own way!

There hasn't been much paper crafting going on, the tables all set ready to go but for the last few weeks my mojo's been on holiday sadly and I just can't seem to get my groove on in that department at all, hopefully Scrap Sunday at the end of the week will get me inspired.
But right now I must go and get this house tidied, being here every day has made me very fussy!

Sunday, 5 July 2015

It's been a very pretty but cold Sunday.....

here today. The whole city seems to be in party mode after the Highlanders rugby team won the game last night making them the champions for the season. It was very weird being at ho,e watching it when normally I would have been at work, the hotel would have been packed to the gunnels, the restaurant would have been crazy before the game and I would have been freaking about how many we would get back to the bar afterwards. Not so last night, I sat here and watched the game, partly excited cos I could watch it and also sad that that episode of my life is now over.
I have no idea what I'm going to do next, after 30yrs in the hospo industry I'm not really up to speed with anything else, Also with all the uncertainty in my life at the moment it's very hard to commit to anything.  I want to be available to take care of my bestest friend but at the same time I need to earn a wage.
I've always thought that if my job disappeared I'd do something creative, use my talents with my crafts but that seems to be a hard road at the moment and the openings just aren't there.
However I'm not going to let it stop me doing my crafts, at least they give me something to focus on which I really need at the moment.
Also I've been knitting baby clothes for the local maternity hospital so at least I feel I'm doing something positive.

So that's about it for a cold grey Sunday arvo, tomorrow is a new day of a new week so onwards and upwards.
Have a great week!

PS. Miss Molly certainly has a very spoilt life, this is a shot of her apartment complex, right beside the fire.

Thursday, 18 June 2015

A Gloomy day in winter...

and I'm sitting here knowing I should be getting ready for work but really have no desire to do so. So much is happening at the moment that to be able to sit quiet for awhile is so precious.
My best friend of 47 yrs has just been diagnosed with cancer, now I'm not new to this having been diagnosed with Leukemia in 2001 and I have managed to beat it, but somehow watching someone you care about more than life itself is so hard. All you can do is be support and comfort but somehow it doesn't seem enough.
On top of that my job is going in a week and a half, the hotel I work in has been sold and the entire staff of 45 are out on the the street. Not great when it's winter and this city quietens down considerably in the tourist and traveller industry during this time. So there are very few employment opportunities around at the moment. But apart from this it means losing the workmates who have become friends to far and wide. So yeah I probably have reason to want to hunker down by the heater with Miss Molly and lose myself to Blogland.
Apart from all this heavy stuff, I have been enjoying knitting again, knitting baby clothes for the maternity ward at our local hospital. There is a huge need for little knitted items for the the new born babies, sadly so many Mums are not prepared when baby arrives for many reasons, and the hospital are very grateful to have a stash of warm little goodies. So if you are a knitter who loves to knit little quick things I urge you to consider this as a pastime.

So on the crafty front, I have been making a little book with inspiring sayings for when my friend goes into hospital. I'm really thrilled with it and must just do the cover. I got sidetracked because I ordered some of the mini Magnolia stamps and I have been experimenting with them. It takes a bit of getting used to the dimensions, but you have more landscape on your card to decorate so they are very cool.
The other delight of my life Miss Molly is growing so fast and has become a real "force to be reckoned with" lol! No, really she's a gorgeous little cat with bags of attitude, just love her to bits. She loves nothing more than to cuddle up with you and she's great company.
I also think the need to return to my blog stems from having a beautiful new laptop, it's gorgeous and the keyboard is just wonderful to use. I don't know, can one keyboard be better than another? Anyway the urge to write(or type) is definitely there.
So that's pretty much where life's at for me right now, so I'm going to now sign off and sneak in some browsing time looking at all the gorgeous cards on Pinterest. Oh and just a couple of pics of my latest cards and of course one of the Divine Miss M!
Ciao for now!

Tuesday, 17 February 2015

Still in Love.....

It must be at least two years since I have used my Magnolia stamps, but lately the urge to create cards with them has been strong. I love the cards the Europeans make with these beautiful stamps. They use such beautiful dies, lace, beads and flowers and I can spend hours drooling over them on-line. So I have decided I have to get back to trying to make those sort of cards again. I have been lucky enough to collect some of the dies and so my latest adventure has begun....not sure how long it will last but right now I'm really keen. My fascination with these cards is all the layers, the lace, the flowers and of course the dies. My problem at the moment is that I spend more time looking on-line than I do making and then I get frustrated, cos I'm not getting anywhere. However I have discovered it's good for me to have a focus, my concentration gets a bit scrambled since my operation and I get a bit over anxious about getting everything perfect, so if my gorgeous Magnolia stamps can help this then it will be fun therapy.
This is of course not a Magnolia stamp but I had fun with this one, the wee stamp came with a magazine, I think she's super-cute.
My best friend and I have decided we are going to do a craft show at the end of the year so I want to start building my stock, and see where this journey takes me.
It's so good to have a fun focus this space!

Saturday, 27 December 2014

Handmade Box for your Prima Doll Tags

Handmade Box for your Prima Doll Tags

This is an awesome tutorial, this box is perfect.

Tuesday, 23 December 2014

So Two days from Christmas.....

I find this so hard to believe, that in fact we are two days out from Christmas. So much has happened these last few months that I find it hard to believe that I'm sitting here in the sun, getting ready for Christmas, Well ok, I'm on a coffee break, but I'm trying to be productive!
So three months have passed since I had a Quadruple bypass, and life is just about back to normal. I've started the journey of getting back to work, one shift last week and this week, then three next week and then we'll reassess. It's been a slow but steady journey, a few dramas, a few backward steps but on the whole it's been always heading in the right direction.
I will be eternally grateful to the Surgeons, the doctors and all the nurses who took such good care of me on this journey and I have determined I won't waste their efforts, from now on my life is going to be about enjoying the moment, taking those risks and most of all appreciating all the good people and experiences in my life.
I am going to fill my time with what I enjoy not just work, that's a means to an end, but I have so many things I love to do, that give me huge pleasure and nurture my soul, these are the things that are going to be prioritized.
So here's to a very Happy Christmas and an exciting and adventurous 2015!.
Merry Christmas.


Tuesday, 4 November 2014

So this afternoon I've been working on my album of my journey I've been traveling since August.
One of my lovely friends brought me this gorgeous set of Prima papers when I was first in the hospital and I knew straight away I would use it to do an album of my health journey.
I don't usually scrap much about myself but when this suggestion was made that it might be a good way for me to come to terms with what's happened I decided to be brave and give it a go.
It has proven to be really cool to do and actually easier than I thought it might be. Faye had been taking many candid shots while I was in hospital so my journey had been well documented, some of them are pretty raw so I wasn't sure how they'd go but actually I've been pretty happy with the pages I've done so far.
Despite the fact that I never like photos of me, I've found it really easy to scrap these pictures, I even get excited when I look at them, they tell a story and it's great to be able to look at them and know that things are better than when some of them were taken.
I think it's going to be great to have it to look back on and reflect on this amazing journey. 

So for now this project and enjoying the little things in my daily life is making me so happy, I feel truly blessed.

Sunday, 2 November 2014

Where has the time gone?

It has been ages since I updated my blog, I used to be updating it with snippets of news, photos and ideas all the time, but life has changed for me over the past couple of months and I haven't been brave enough to share the facts with too many people. But now that everything is coming together again I feel ready to share what's been happening.
For about a year, maybe longer I just haven't been feeling as good as I usually do, I'd get very tired, short of breath my stress levels would go through the roof at the slightest thing, I just thought it was a normal reaction to a busy life.....ah no I was wrong! My heart was struggling and everything came to a head when I'd been to the doctor and they'd done blood tests and thought I'd had a heart attack! Long story short I was collected from work in an ambulance and carted off to hospital!
After several tests they doubted their heart attack theory but admitted me for further tests.
Well there was blood tests, an ECG, x-rays etc etc and finally the top Cardiac man informed me that the situation really required a Bypass and then I realised this was serious, and it wasn't going to be fixed by adding another pill! I had to make the decision to agree to this, that was a terrifying thing to have to do but somehow it was the less scary option. And so one week and half later it was on! The hospital had been letting me come and go while I was waiting but when I arrived back on that Monday morning and realised it was on for the next day, I went into panic mode! But after having the chance to calm down with the help of my very best friend I decided it was for the best and so the journey began. The night before the surgery I was very calm and went about preparing for the next day. The morning of the surgery was very calm and at around 12.30 they took me to surgery, the team were cracking jokes and miraculously I managed to join in until I fell asleep.
I awoke that night in ICU and was being taken care of by a wonderful nurse and once again I felt incredibly safe and calm.Later that morning I was returned to the ward where I drifted in an out of sleep for a while. Once again the care was fantastic, and the next day I was taken for a walk by the physio guy, well once I found my feet I was determined to find my strength, the sooner I was strong the sooner I could go home!
I was discharged from hospital the following Sunday and a whole new life began.
Sure I felt incredibly fragile, probably more scared than I admitted even to myself but excited that I have a new chance at life, a new and different life. No longer am I terrified that I can't cope with the heat, the cold or over exertion. The burning in my throat, the tightness in my chest have all gone.
It's been six weeks since my surgery and every day I feel stronger and stronger. I have gone through the fear that something will go wrong, I have stopped second guessing every little feeling, I have started to relax and look forward to my future of feeling healthy and stronger. I have no idea how the journey will go from here but I do love that I can go walking and not have to worry about the shortness of breath and the aching in my body. I am calm and can enjoy day to day life.
I will be eternally grateful to the doctors and nurses who made this happen, I am incredibly grateful to my best friend, Faye, who has tirelessly supported me through this whole journey, her sister and my family, the huge job Faye did keeping my sister in Oz, informed of every detail as it unfolded, thank heavens for mobile phones!
I now know what it's like to be able to relax and enjoy what I'm doing without having to second guess every feeling and every flutter!
My mantra every day is to be grateful for the good stuff!!!!

Wednesday, 10 September 2014

This and That

Our Beautiful little Molly is growing up so fast.
From that tiny little kitten to this gorgeous fluff ball with an attitude befitting the average teenager.

I just love this little cat, I can't believe how fast she's grown, not only in size but in personality and nature.

She's probably the most independent cat I've ever had which took me awhile to get used to, but now  I just love her stubborn little personality and her independence.
The similarity between her and our darling Gus is immense, of course she comes from the same family, but every day I'm reminded of Gus which is a lovely thing.

To other things, I have been trying to get to spend time doing crafty things for a while, and ironically, due to a health drama, I'm going to get  to spend time at home, so hopefully I can lose myself in the world of paper, paint, stamps and watch this space.

But in the meantime I have been knitting little beanies and booties for a couple of maternity hospitals. I love doing this and have had a ball in the last couple of months filling a couple of boxes, so if you like knitting for babies, and don't have a little one to knit for, I urge you to find your local maternity hospital, and make them a few bits and pieces, they will be very grateful.
So with that little update, I'm off to pick up my knitting.

Tuesday, 29 July 2014

Show Envy

Well I'm a tad jealous of my sister and her sister going to the Papercraft Expo in Brisbane at the weekend, but absolutely thrilled for them at the same time. The photos have sent me into orbit so I can only imagine what it was like to be there.
So much inspiration!!!!!!!
However I musn't be jealous I'm one weekend away from going to the Limor workshops at Scrapbook Paradise and I can't wait.

Wednesday, 28 May 2014

So Far it's Been an Eventful Week......

It snowed on Monday night and then froze, we had to get Molly to the vet early on Tuesday morning to be speyed and the vet is higher up the hill than we are..... but with nerves of steel we made it, a couple of scary moments but we got there.
That was almost the easy part, then we had to occupy ourselves until it was time to pick the wee girl up. I was pretty scared about how she would be, but she was dozey but fine, her wee tummy's shaved and she's got the tiniest little scar. She slept most of last night  and even today she's  pretty sleepy, but she's good really. It's going to be hard to leave her tomorrow and go back to work but at least Faye will still be here and she'll take good care of her.
I've been working on Sam's graduation album again and I've got three pages to do and then I can send it to her, I love it heaps and I hope she days. It's been awesome to do it for her the photos are gorgeous and everyone brings back so many memories. Might have to do one for myself.

Actually I need to do one for myself, it was such a special day and one I never want to forget.
But right now I think it's time for bed, back to work tomorrow.....another week begins.